concluding life in halifax

these days in halifax.. well.... i don't enjoy it very much as no one close to me go w/ me.
unlike the past few times away for a conference, there's always someone that i can hang onto at least for supper n other things.
this time, the people i go w/ just do whatever independently.
n me... being not that open n social w/ strangers, is kinda hard to survive in this city.

i was longing for this vacation b4 as i can get out of the busy life.
but i ended up finding very lonely in halifax.
this loneliness was killing me every day n i can't wait to get out of there.
i had once thought i can handle loneliness and be able to live alone since i m the only child... should be independent.
but end up i was like a lost sheep in the forest.
i can't stand this quietness n i dunno y i can't hold onto God tightly.
it's so hard to believe that once u r a christian, u'll still feel that emptiness and loneliness evading u.
guess i've focussed too much on myself and forget to raise my head and forget to raise my hand to God.
it's so scary n horrible.
keep me in prayer if u can... for i m still very upset n scary at this moment... that i just need God to fill this hole.