miss my popo

i m packing my summer clothes into boxes and hanging all the winter ones up.
saw the sweaters and scarfs that my grandma knitted for me..
the sweaters and the sleeves were a bit short (well.. i know i m fat..) and the style is a bit "leung"...
the scarfs were cute so i wore them a lot!
they reminded me of my grandma.. my popo who died last summer.. the day b4 i came back from europe.
i missed her so much that i just kept crying now..
felt bad that i didn't spend enough time w/ her.
didn't make her laugh much... (can't believe it right? as i've always driven people crazy.. =P)
i was too busy dating when she came visited me ma...
n i've never thought that was the last time i would c her...
felt even worse was that she didn't turn to christ.
i know that it's her choice.. but.. i m just upset.

i wasn't crying this much when i knew my grandma passed away.
maybe.. i m always slow... slow to react. slow to spread the gospel..
now i finally understand y we need to have the "cheung dap tight" (the last section) in the bible contest.
coz quick response and sensitivity are very important to serve God in addition to knowledge!!