God himself or His gifts?

Quote from "Our Journey" on Jan 19, 2007:

"The lack of feeling does not always indicate that we are wrong. It may be that Christ would teach us to distinguish between love and the emotion of love, between joy and the rapture of joy, between peace and the sense of peace. Or perhaps He may desire to ascertain whether we cling to Him for Himself or for His gifts."

Have been praying for God's guidance and know how to write my thesis.
feel like "taking advantage of God" after reading this article.
well.. guess i should refocus on God Himself...